29 Questions

I haven’t done a Survey Post in a while so when I saw this one on some popular blogs I thought I would do it myself!

1. What are you wearing?

Slippers, Blue Sweatpants, and an old t-shirt from the Britney Spears Circus tour. Basically, I am grubtastic.

2. Ever been in love?

Yes, twice.

3. Ever had a terrible breakup?

Yep, with my husband (before we were married). It was really hard, but in the end it all worked out.

4. How tall are you?

5’4.5

5. How much do you weigh?

160 ish pounds

6. Any tattoos?

SIX – “Love” and 2 paw prints on my foot, a Sparrow on my collar Bone, “Health” in Greek on my wrist, a Peacock feather on my forearm, a Sugar Skull and 3 Sunflowers on my back and the Chinese Symbol for “Dance” on my neck. Apparently I am a mosaic of languages and I love birds :)

7. Any piercings?

Yes, My ears are stretched to a 2 gauge, I also have a rook in my left ear, my nose, and my bellybutton. I used to have my lip pierced (I lost it after a soccer game and it grew over, sad face), and in the past I have had 3 holes in my lobes, an industrial, and my tragus. I plan on getting my tragus done again at some point.

8. Favorite song?

It constantly changes. Right now it is “Come to Me” by the Goo Goo Dolls.

9. Quality you look for in a partner?

Sense of humor.

10. Favorite quote?

11. Favorite actor?

Collin Farrell

12. Loud music or soft?

Loud!

13. Where do you go when you’re sad?

Home.

14. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

5 Minutes haha, if I am wearing makeup and doing my hair – 30 minutes (but that is RARE)

15. Ever been in a physical fight?

One time I was at a bar and had a few drinks. The guy I was with dumped his cup on the ground and some ice hit the shoe of a girl who was walking by. She flipped her shit and then walked away. When we were leaving, I walked by her and said “You are a real B****.” and kept on walking. She freaked (again), and pushed me from behind twice. I was ready to tango, but people jumped in between and were yelling at her haha.

Another time, I was in grade 12 and this grade 9 native girl (who was taller and bigger than me) was walking towards me in the hall. I squared my shoulders and didn’t move myself to let her walk by and she bounced off of me and into the lockers. It was pretty hilar. I don’t think I would shy away from a physical fight, but I also don’t go searching for them either haha.

16. Turn on?

Nice Eyes and an Accent

17. Turn off?

Stupidity, Arrogance, Being Self Centered.

18. Fears?

Tornados

19. Last thing that made you cry?

I re-watched The Book Thief on my days off.

20. Last time you said you loved someone?

Today.

21. Meaning behind your YouTube Name?

I don’t think I have a YouTube Name haha

22. The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

He’s my Husband ;)

23. Favorite food?

Chocolate. All the Chocolate. But specifically Dark!

24. Place you want to visit?

Machu Picchu

25. Do you have a crush?

Ragnar Lothbrok. Haha

26. Last time you kissed someone?

This morning when I left for Yoga – Kissed Matthias and the Dogs

27. Last time you were insulted?

I actually can’t remember… which must mean I didn’t think it was very important.

28. Favorite piece of jewelry?

My Wedding Rings

29. Who should answer these questions next?

Becky, Lindsey, Leigh :)

Friday FAVORITES

So much awesomeness.

  1. MEC Clothing - Dare I say that the quality and fit surpasses Lululemon?! I recently found MEC Clothing and purchased 2 pairs of Capris (Prana Prism and Lotus Capri) and I LOVE them. I love the rise, the color (a bit darker than they show on the picture) and the fit. They are snug, but not too snug, and they don’t ride up or down. And no  sheerness! The price is very reasonable as well. I can’t wait to buy more.  
  2. Vikings - Holy shit. I can’t get over this show. It is AHMAYZING. And Ragnar is so flipping good-looking. I. Can’t. Even. Please watch! It is on the History Channel. Thank you Husband for convincing me to add that channel back to our Cable Package. Worth it.

    You’re Welcome.

  3. Falling Out of Yoga Poses - Kind of an odd one, but I crack up every time I try a posture and don’t get it (with the exception of rolling out of forearm headstand because I am scared I am going to rip out my hair haha). Poses I have fallen out of recently: Flying Pigeon, Jumping back to Chataranga from Crow, Side Crow, and Eka Pada Koundinyasana I. Better to approach practice with laughter than seriousness. The goal is to be light, not heavy :)
  4. Teaching Indoor Cycle - My first session of Indoor Cycle will be closing up in 2 weeks! No break for me though :) I go in to my second session, which will be Monday/Tuesday for 9 weeks. I will likely prefer the Tuesday/Thursday dates, but Monday/Tuesday worked better for me this time around because I am doing a LOT of travel in the next few weeks.
  5. Travel – Ahhhhhh……. Here’s what I got lined up: Edmonton for 6 days in May for a Nursing Conference and a Nursing Meeting, Yandara Yoga Teacher Training for 3 weeks in May/June, 1 day home then 5 days in Winnipeg for a Nursing Conference (I only work 5, FIVE, shifts in June). Then I will work all summer to save some money. Edmonton a few more times throughout the year for more nursing stuff. In October Matthias and I are headed back to Europe for 11 days – Germany, Austria, and Switzerland are on the menu! and then we are home for a month and a half and then headed to Mexico for a week before Christmas.

On the Irony of Yoga Teaching Training

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Anyone who knows me knows that I am, well, a perfectionist.

A classic Type-A kind of girl.

I embrace it most of the time, and it helps me to be a bit of an over-achiever, which is good for the most part.

I’m not competitive with other people. I’ve never been. But I set VERY high expectations for myself, which is something I often have to take a step back to reflect on. I can easily be harsh and critical of myself, which certainly doesn’t serve me in a positive way.

I’ve been practicing yoga on and off for 5 years now, a little more off than on, but I have always loved how I feel when I practice, and the peace that it brings me afterwards. That is why it was the perfect goal for 2014.

Lets be honest though, I am really pushing my limits by committing to a 16 day, 200 hundred hour teacher training program in MAY. Like only 5 months into the year, about 7ish weeks away from now.

No one wants to go into something knowing they are the least experienced, and least flexible participant. Especially not a Type-A perfectionist. And that is exactly why my YTT adventure is completely perfect for me to do right now.

grumpyGive me another year and a half and I can pretty much guarantee “perfection” in challenging poses, in pranayama, and in knowing sanskrit.

Yoga is so not about any type of perfection. It is about being present right now, feeling the breath and the posture and how it effects your body in the moment. It is a welcomed reminder to me, the person who thinks years down the road, to think about now, about my tight hips and shoulders, and about the opening of my heart that I am working on, figuratively and literally.

I am scared. Afraid that I wont fit in, that I wont be Yogi-enough, that I wont get my certificate when I am done, and that I wont make friends while I am there. I know how trivial that might sound, but they are legit worries, and they are formed on the basis of our society and the importance of “fitting in with the crowd.”

I am also so excited. Ready to take on the unknown, feel the process of learning more about my body and how I do yoga. Learning to let the light I have in my shine out to the world through Yoga.

I won’t be ready to “teach Yoga” when I am done my 200 hour teacher training. I will have a better knowledge of yoga history, sanskrit, postures, and anatomy. I will (hopefully) be (even) more confident in the body, as well as in my yoga practice, and have a more developed home practice that I can take with me. I also hope that I will be able to share some light and love with the world, however that may look.

Maybe a few years down the road I will feel “ready” to teach yoga. Maybe never. But YTT doesn’t have to be about the goal of teaching others, it can be about being open to possibility and opportunity and letting the universe guide you to where you need to be.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on this topic! Have you ever felt worried about starting a new job or entering a new opportunity where you didn’t feel “good enough”? What things did you do to help ease your nerves?

March Review & April Goals

March was a pretty good month!

I exercised 24/31 Days this month.

I practiced Yoga 15 times.

I taught Indoor Cycle 8 times.

I walked the dogs a lot!

I tried realllly hard to comment more on other folk’s blogs, and I think I was decently successful at this.

I didn’t run a single mile – but more on that soon!

Here are some goals for April:

  1. Practice Yoga Every Day – I am going to dedicate at least 15 minutes every day to Yoga Practice, but ideally more like 30-60minutes.
  2. Add some Strength Training back in to my routine - I signed up for the Tough Mudder in Drumheller on Sunday September 7th. My heat time is 9:20am. (Becky that information is for you! :) GO SIGN UP) So needless to say I need to get a bit stronger and a bit faster if I am going to complete the course.
  3. Maybe Run. - Again, more coming on that soon.

So just three goals this month but they are pretty hefty. Side note – If I got pregnant do you think I could still do the Tough Mudder? I might need to do some looking into that.

The Problem with Comparison Photographs

We’ve all seen it.

Whether it be on Insagram, Facebook, Twitter, Blogs, or other forms of social media. They are lurking everywhere. Heck, they even have a page dedicated to them here on my blog.

Before & After’s

Then & Now’s

Transformation Photos

Comparison Photos

They do serve a purpose – to highlight the progress made towards ones goals, and yes they are probably a bit better (within reason) than focusing solely on a number as being your objective.

But they can be detrimental too. They can become the focus of progress – “Oh my arms still look big” “My thighs look huge in that picture”. They can become a means of comparison for other people – “She lost all of that weight, why can’t I” and “I’m going to do exactly what she did and I will reach my goals too”. And they can become obsessive – Weekly Transformation Tuesday, Throwback Thursday, and Flashback Friday posts on IG.

I think that sometimes people forget that not only can we change our bodies over time, but we also change our perception, our thought process, and our level of knowledge over time too. Taking a photograph only demonstrates one element of change – thereby gratifying our society’s strong connection with personal image equaling success and beauty.

I strongly encourage you to read this short “Transformation” post – it is a post I strongly relate to.

And in the spirit of self love and transparency here is a comparison photo for you to see.

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(L) My old “After Photo”
(R) My old “Before Photo”

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Currently 40lb heavier than the photo on the Right, 35lb lower than my original “Before Photo” but infinitely healthier.

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Take a moment to look at how thin my arms were. This was taken in July, but I was cold all the time and needed to wear a long sleeve shirt and a scarf.

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Another Current Photo – Curvy, Healthy, Happy

Still beautiful – just a little more of me to be beautiful :)