I was cruising the internet today, doing the usual, reading blogs, about weight loss, inspiration, motivation, meditation, the whole 9 yards, when I came across a post discussing a new way to make resolutions for the new year. Now, I know we are already 19 days in to the new year, but I don’t think there is any wrong time to make a resolution.
The way this resolution works? Pick a word to describe how you want your year to unfold, what you want to focus on, what you want to be and do.
I thought this task to be a daunting one. One word? To describe everything that I want to be?
Happiness, Health, Confidence, Acceptance
This is what I want to focus on this year. I want to be happy, with myself, my relationships, my commitments, my life. I want to be healthy, to find that “Aha!” weight where I feel it all come together, where I don’t constantly look in the mirror wondering if I look fat. I want to be confident, in my body, mind and soul, to take pride in my accomplishments and own them. And the most important one (in my opinion), I want to find acceptance of myself and my life, what it was, is, and what it will become.
So why did I chose serenity?
noun ( pl. -ties)
the state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled
When I find happiness, acceptance, and build some confidence, I believe that I will find serenity. I will no longer be troubled. I will be happy with everything in my life. Maslow called it self actualization. I suppose that is a part of it.
I was talking in my sleep the other night and the next morning Andrew told me that I said “Where is my life going?“. Wow. I was speechless when he told me that. Talk about delving into my innermost self.
I once was a very structured person, and I suppose to an extent my life still is (school, work, dance, ext.. my busy busy schedule). But elsewhere, I have no structure at all. When I graduate in a year and 11 weeks (Yes, I am counting), I have absolutely no idea what I will do and where I will go. I like the less-structured Amie a lot more than the anal, over-analytic psycho control freak I used to be. I feel more peaceful now, even surrounded by all of my obligations and commitments. I look forward to graduation. I look forward to downsizing my commitments and just being.
Ask me where I see myself in 5 years? I see myself being Serene.
Now I must ask you, what is your word for 2011? Post a comment and let me know what it is and why.