Life Update

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Hi! I can’t believe it has been since JUNE that I have posted. And now we are heading into NOVEMBER. Where have the last 5 months gone!?!?!

Oh I know. They went into selling our house, getting pregnant, packing our house, losing our Tucker, moving to a new city, starting a new job, getting a new puppy, and now trading in my vehicle for a minivan. #MomLife

So a quick update of where we are at over here!

We MOVED! We have been talking about moving for years but never really thought it would become a reality and then BAM we did it. We sold our house in 2 weeks, and only had to show it twice before we had an offer. *pats self on the back for job well done at cleaning* Then two days after we accepted an offer we had an offer accepted on a lovely and spacious 2 story house in Airdrie. Aka – The best home style for a family ever. We got all our ducks in a row and moved at the end of August.

Between June and September I was going through the ever lovely first trimester, feeling like complete shit and all that fun stuff. I don’t know how I managed to accomplish all that I did.

I started my new job a few weeks after moving. I’m working half time on an acute crisis stabilization/short stay mental health unit. It’s pretty much my dream line and the unit is amazing. After a few job disappointments in Red Deer I am happy to say everything worked out exactly as it should have and I am in the perfect position for our family right now!

Then Matthias got laid off. That AB economy though. So he spent 6 weeks being a house husband while I worked full time hours to try and make up some of the lost income because #EIPaySucks.

He recently started a new job out of town in Fort Mac. It has been an adjustment having him gone again after he was home for nearly 2 years, and Quinn and I are definitely missing him, but our bank account will hopefully be happy soon.

Quinn has been growing like cray. She talks a whole bunch now and is starting to copy more and more. We have been working on “Trick or Treat” lately. I doubt she will actually say it in front of strangers when we go out on Halloween to a few houses but its still super cute. Shes walking and trying to run and she is full of personality. Finding another day home proved to be a struggle, especially now that Matthias is out of town, but we found a very nice lady/family and I think Quinn is liking it there so far!

We also lost Tucker in August. That was really fucking hard. After a fall at the dog park and a broken leg, we found out he had Cancer in his bone and lungs and the prognosis was not good. It was a complete shock as he had been healthy and energetic right up until the fall. He was running out of the water after swimming.. that is how perfectly normal he seemed. He was only 7 years old, which seems way to early to lose someone we cared so much about. We had him cremated and he is in our living room. I don’t think a day goes by that I don’t think of him and the little things he used to do that I miss.

About 2 months after we lost Tucker we decided to start looking for another dog to add to our family. Not to replace Tucker, because that will obvi never happen, but to definitely fill a bit of the void that we still left behind. I wanted a pug. Matthias wanted a big dog. So we compromised and got a Great Dane/Mastiff (sarcasm). His name is Duke and he is a riot. He is going to be a big boy! He is 11 weeks old and 30lb.

Finally, let me update you on the pregnancy! We have a midwife in Calgary and if we can get our financial shit together I hope to be delivering at the Arbour Birth Center here. We also have our same doula from when we had Quinn. So hopefully all is well and the roads are dry when I go into labor because she will have to drive the hour and 20 minutes from Lacombe to get here and then we will have to drive the 40 minutes to the birth center…. Haha. I’m almost 19 weeks now and we find out the gender in one freaking week. How crazy is that?!!? I feel like I waited forever and a day to find out the gender with Quinn and BAM here we are and I’m already half way through and I have done nothing at all to prepare lol.

Amiright?

So I think that’s pretty much all that is worth mentioning! I’m hoping to become more active here again now that it feels like our life is settling down finally. Quinn just woke up and is saying No Way over and over so I better go in and see what all the fuss is about 😉

On Teaching Yoga

AmieHalfLotusBlogYoga. This beautiful, fulfilling practice that has become a beacon back to Myself. While I took pretty much my entire pregnancy off of practicing, I have added it back in to my life postpartum and I have once again been reminded of how important it is for me to maintain a regular practice. My life feels fuller and more balanced with it.

Back when I decided to do Yoga Teacher Training (Part 1, 2, and 3), I never actually imagined that I would be teaching yoga. It was more so a final adventure or hurrah before settling down and having a baby. It was something I wanted to do to deepen my practice, to learn more about the foundations, the philosophy, and how to incorporate yoga in to all of my lifestyle, not just as part of my exercise routine.

I got pregnant 2 weeks after returning from my trip. I like to think my trip played in to this… I can’t recall a time in my life ever that I have been more present for such a large chunk of time. The memories I have of Yandara and the experiences are vivid in my memory. I can recall all 5 senses of being there… The sight of the early morning sunrise through the windows of the paviliion, the sound of the waves lulling me to sleep at night, the taste of papaya and oatmeal with homemade granola, the feel of the hot sand between my toes as we walked to the beach during our lunch break, and the smell of the hot apple cinnamon tea that was consumed in large amounts instead of coffee. The trip centered me. I treated myself to massages, an astrology reading, and more importantly a reiki session to balance my chakras – something I think I needed for a long time and something I attribute to me finally getting pregnant after 16 months of trying.

So then I didn’t practice for close to 10 months, and when I did start practicing in the spring with Emily and Ebb & Flow Yoga, I was excited to make it a regular part of my life again and was hopeful she would continue teaching in Blackfalds. Then I found out she was pregnant herself 😉

When Emily asked if I wanted to rent the space she was renting to teach I was actually pretty taken back by it… Me? Teach Yoga? It honestly sounded a bit absurd at first. This was a practice I kept fairly private. Something I did for myself without blasting it on Social Media. Something that I incorporated into all aspects of my life, not just as physical asanas. Could I really teach? Would people even want to take my class?

After thinking about it for a few days I decided to give it a go.

So I went about navigating the process of setting up a class – advertising it, registering people, getting some things together to set the vibe, and sequencing my very first class.

I thought I had it *just right*. I was going to go into that classroom and kick ass at teaching Yoga. I was going to make the most zen experience for all those yogi’s they weren’t even going to know what hit them.

And then the day arrived.

And I got nervous.

And you know what energy I created in that classroom?

Nervous Energy.

I can’t deny it. There’s no point. I was really freaking nervous. I was so worried they were going to see right through me as a sham. Someone who wasn’t good enough to teach yoga. Sure, I was able to adapt the sequence to their level during the class. I was able to tone it back because what I had put together wasn’t a good fit for their first class. But it threw me for a loop.

And therein lies the problem. I let my thoughts of what others may or may not think of me cloud my thinking and take me away from the real purpose of teaching yoga. I let my energy change the feel of the class and so I fumbled on my words and I mixed up my lefts and rights and I left feeling awkward and unsure that I made the right choice to try this whole “Yoga Teacher” thing.

I took the next day (during nap time of course) to reflect on the previous evening and what I would like to do differently the next class.

I decided the next class would have a different energy. I was so worried about who I thought I should be that I forgot to just be ME.

Since that first class the vibe has changed, it’s become more fun, less like I thought it “should” be and more how it is supposed to be. Does that make sense? I’m probably just rambling. 😉

It’s been a fun ride so far. I look at my practice differently. And while I never intended to “teach” that seems to be exactly what I was meant to do and I hope to continue doing.

Namaste, ya’ll. 😉

5 Ways Beachbody Has Made Me a Better Mother

IMG_46711 – I’m eating healthier! Since adding Shakeology into my life I have felt great. I have more energy throughout the day which leads to less sugar and caffeine consumption. More energy also means I’m happier and more willing to cook healthy meals instead of sitting on the couch.

2 – I’m exercising consistently! I’ve really changed my tune now with the at home workouts. Before I was just so BLAH about them. Now that I am in a challenge IMG_4549group I feel more accountable because I want to set a good example for my challengers. Plus we do fun bonus challenges which mixes it up. If I’m not feeling Turbo Fire one day I can throw on BOD and try out a different workout. I’m also not dreading travel to and from the gym either when Quinn is awake and needs to be timed perfectly or when she is asleep and then I feel more lazy about it. Problem solved! Pop in a DVD, Press play, and if the kiddo is awake stick her in the exersaucer or on the playmat and if she is asleep then that’s even better!

3 – I feel more like the Old “Me”! They weren’t kidding around when they told you your entire life would change when you had a baby. Back when I didn’t have a baby I brushed this notion off… “Yeah, it happens to other people, but me? It won’t happen to me.” HAH. Good one. I struggled for a solid 10 weeks emotionally with the shift motherhood placed into my life. I thought I was ready… I wasn’t. (P.S. How in the hell do teenagers or people without their life “together” survive this?!) I really mourned the loss of my old life. It’s not like I was a party-er or really did much of anything that was exciting, but I still longed for something that was just mine – separate from Quinn. Beachbody has given me this. I feel passionate about something separate from my baby. This doesn’t make me a bad mother, it makes me human. 😉

4 – I’m a better wife and friend! I feel like I have sufficient “Me” time now between working out, working on my business, and juggling being a mom and wife and having friendships. By being a happier wife, I am improving my relationship with Matthias and in turn our relationship has grown stronger. A strong relationship with my partner makes me a better mother because it sets the stage for Quinn to have healthy relationships in the future. I also feel more inclined to reach out to my friends and set up play dates/get togethers. This time is always refreshing and positive. :)

5 – I’m setting a positive example! By eating healthier, moving consistently, and being HAPPY in my own life and relationships I am setting a positive example for my child and future children to do the same in their lives. Win win!IMG_4644

I’m a TV Snob.

I’d like to dedicate today’s post to my current favorite TV shows. I consider myself to be a bit of a TV Snob. I like shows with character depth and interesting story lines. And don’t even get me started on Reality TV. Haha Kudos to all those who love Big Brother and the Bachelor, but it is NOT my cup of tea! The closest I can get to enjoying Reality Television is Top Chef Canada! I will keep it current and won’t include shows that have ended this past year (which is A LOT of them – True Blood, Boardwalk Empire, The Newsroom, to name a few).

Currently:

The Walking Dead – Okay, so only recently did I jump on the Walking Dead train. I haven’t seen any of the first 4 or 5 seasons, but I know most of them are on Netflix so this is going to be my “Stuck on the Couch Breastfeeding” Show.

Vikings – I have 2 words for you. Ragnar Lothbrok. Seriously. That is all. You need to go and watch this show for this perfect specimen of a man. That being said, it has a great story, but hands down, Ragnar is what keeps me coming back every week. Swoon.

Better Call Saul – First season of this show is currently on right now and I am enjoying it! It has the same creators as Breaking Bad and some of the same characters. This show is about Saul Goodman before he met Walter White.

Girls – I love me some Shoshana. She is definitely my favorite character. This is a 30 minute show, and I am often left wanting more out of the story. It could easily be an hour long each episode and keep me hooked.

Recently Ended:

American Horror Story – I am usually not a fan of anything “Horror” but AHS is creepy and weird enough without actually being too “scary” for me. I also like that they have a new story line each year which keeps it fresh and gives the recurring actors the chance to play different characters. Apparently Lady Gaga is going to be on the next season. She’s not my favorite, but I will still be watching :)

Coming Up Soon:

Mad Men – I almost didn’t include this one because it is only going to be the final 7 episodes playing this year, but if you haven’t watched Mad Men before I suggest you go back to the beginning and watch it all. It is a fabulous show. And Don Draper is quite the hunk.

Vice – I don’t like to watch the news. My big thing with hating the news is not the fact that it is depressing or only showcases all the bad in the world – it is the fact that it is NEVER an objective point of view. The media tells you what it wants you to hear and I struggle with that because rarely is it adequate representation of all sides of a story. Vice showcases a lot of the major issues going on in the world and really highlights all angles of the story. It touches on a lot of topics that are overlooked by mainstream media as well.

Game of Thrones – I don’t even think this one needs an explanation. I am not a lover of fantasy, I don’t read fantasy novels, I don’t know what the hell is going on in the Hobbit movies Matthias brings me along to see, but there is something different and enchanting about Game of Thrones. It took me a bit to get into the first season, but once you are hooked, you are hooked forever. My favorite character is John Snow.

Summer Shows:

The Knick – This show is so wicked. It is about a doctor and medical staff at the Knickerbocker Hospital in New York in the early 1900’s. Clive Owen is spectacular. If I had to pick a current favorite TV Show (Ragnar Lothbrok’s aside) it would be this one.

True Detective – Another amazing show. This one played last winter, so I was expecting it to start again soon, only to Google and find out it has been moved to the summer! Bummer. But you know what makes up for it being moved? COLLIN FARRELL BEING IN THE NEXT SEASON. Have I told you about my love for Collin Farrell? Matthias is so jealous that I can’t even watch Collin Farrell movies without him chiming in about how terrible of an actor he is and how ridiculous he is. It’s actually quite funny. I’m seriously pumped he will be in the next season! The first season of this show was so cinematic and well thought out. It played more like a movie than a TV series. Matthew McConaughey and Woody Harrelson were fantastic. Also to look forward to in the second season? Vince Vaughn and Elisabeth Moss (Peggy Olson on Mad Men).

The Leftovers – So I won’t lie. It took me pretty much the entire first season to actually get into this show. I more or less just watched it because it was on after True Blood. It builds very, very slowly. And it often left me quite confused. So confused that I had to read a blog about it to actually fully grasp what I was watching and the underlying themes that were oblivious to me. Then the final 2 episodes happened and my mind was blown.

Netflix Only:

House of Cards – I am really looking forward to the new season that just aired on Friday! Kevin Spacey and Robin Wright are calculated and intense. I am not usually one to like political shows, but the monologues directed at the audience from Frank Underwood suck you in.

Honorable Mention:

Downton Abbey – Okay, so I watched the three seasons on Netflix, and I was so devastated after them that I haven’t continued on to watch any more. I really, really love(d) this show. Lady Grantham is hilarious. I love that it’s British and set in the 1910’s/20’s/30’s. However, I am just not sure I can keep watching after the events of the third season. I won’t spill any details, but I highly recommend this show, even if I’m so torn about it.

Okay! So that’s my list. I also am really enjoying Parenthood right now, but I didn’t include it because the series just ended.

What TV shows do you love?

Are there any shows you want to watch but haven’t yet? I mentioned the Walking Dead above, and my dad has also tried to get me to watch Hell on Wheels, so I will probably watch that one on Netflix after I am done the Walking Dead. I also really like the idea of Halt and Catch Fire, but I have never actually watched an episode!